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It has definitely not been the best day.

I bickered with my boyfriend. The honeymoon stage is definitely over.

I spent WAY too much money on a new computer. Mine crashed this morning.

I told my friend I'm not going to move in with her. Things just didn't work out.

Now, at 11 o'clock at night, I am lying on the couch with the cutest little gecko crawling on my arms, wondering what the point of it all is. Why am I here, what is my purpose, will I leave a legacy?

I'm not depressed, I'm not sad.

I am empty.

And I have no idea why.

For the life of me, I have no idea why I feel this way. Maybe it's because I quit taking my anti-depressants? Perhaps because I have wandered away from God? Or is it because the people in my life are dragging me down?

I cannot figure it out, and I don't know what to do.

Perhaps to start this new adventure, I should explain myself a bit.

1. I'm Kellee. I'm 20, I'm a junior at UNC, and I will be an elementary school teacher - maybe.
2. I have been dating a pretty cool guy for just over a month.
3. I was assaulted in October by my best friend/ex-boyfriend, which is why I was on anti-depressants.
4. God is absolutely the most important aspect of my life, and I love Jesus with all that I am.

This blog will be a journal... sort of. Obviously, I'm not going to blab all my biggest secrets all over the internet. That would be silly. But, it will be a venting point for me when I am under stress, overly excited, or just blah and there is no one for me to talk to (although I sincerely doubt anyone will read this).

So now you know a little bit about me.

I feel a little less empty.

Goodnight, world.